Saturday, December 15, 2012

day 3 of deployment.

The day I've been dreading finally came on Thursday... my boyfriend deployed. For six months. To Japan. In terms of being a military girlfriend, I actually got a pretty sweet deal. He's not in combat, it's a short deployment and he will soon have regular phone and internet. In terms of a being a normal girlfriend, I got a totally crappy deal because, well, DUDE IS OFF MY ISLAND FOR SIX MONTHS. I have to keep reminding myself that plenty of people have it much worse than I do and to just take it one day at a time, but it still sucks. It really, really sucks. He's not only my boyfriend, he's my best friend and my partner in crime and him being gone leaves a huge void in my day to day life. I'm so lucky that I have such awesome friends here (and at home, thank you iphone for keeping me connected to my people) that keep me entertained and laughing during the day. I'm lonely at night and still accustomed to waking up at 4:30am to beep him down to the parking garage, so I've been watching episodes of Home Improvement when I wake up to distract myself. Man, is the intro to that show crazy or what, even 15 years after it came out.

We said a really sad goodbye at 5am on a street corner in Waikiki (in typical nighttime-in-Waikiki fashion, surrounded by hookers and drunk peeps) and then he got into a taxi and drove off while I sobbed in the street. And then it started raining. He said it was like a Humphrey Bogart movie, but that  scene was terrible and I would never want to watch something so crappy, haha.

I pack this much just for a weekend away
things that have made me cry in the last 3 days:
-a Navy lady in cami's in line at Starbucks
-half the songs on this play list of island jams
-'boyfriend" by Justin Beiber ...

If I was your boyfriend, I’d never let you go
 (But you did! You're gone!)
I can take you places you ain't never been before
(You are currently at a place I ain't never been before... without me!)
Baby, take a chance or you’ll never ever know
(But I did take a chance and I do know!)
I got money in my hands that I’d really like to blow
(I have no money to blow, so that just makes me sad in general)

things that have kept me sane in the last 3 days:
-finally having 2 weeks off of work!
-my little sis coming to visit this week!
-'indie dance radio' on Pandora
-constant calls/texts/fb messages from both of our families and friends. I <3 technology.
-ice cream...kind of a lot of ice cream
-Animal Planet shows about puppies [you win Sam, we can have a German shepherd one day]

So... 3 days down, 196 to go...

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